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so many people have asked my how my holidays were in the last couple days and let me tell you seeing my family (my brothers and cousins) was fantastic...my brother's gf Melissa came for her first family holiday after I had gone to NEW JERSEY for her families Thanksgiving..and she got to see first hand the fun that is my step-mother Minou..yes thats her gd name..Minou-which means little cat in french I think....she is best understood as a tsunami of self involvement....it's not fun to be near her or around her or interact with her..it involves a tremendous amount of energy...which due to my SHINGLES (sighs) I am lacking....blerg I sound liek all those other self involved blogs that rattle on about the owners peg leg or negleting fathers ...

I find myself at this moment with my family gone and silence in my house in a sinkhole of loneliness

I have that icky pit in my stomach and the feeling of something not being right but not being able to figure out what it is..

**curls up in fetal ball**