Havernator

Helloooooooo vancouuuuverrrrr

2007-06-13T13:53:00.000-07:00

2007-05-03T10:44:00.001-07:00

i miss saying goodnight the most

grid down PICTURE SPAMMMMMM

2007-05-02T11:19:00.000-07:00

wow SUPER fired

2007-05-02T10:40:00.000-07:00

hey so it's been 30-9803496 years again....but YAY the grid is down so I have time to waste NOT doing my projects for finals!...
So much has happened in the last few months...the biggest one is that the Imogen sim is *slowly* being redone bit by bit by the lovely Menno Ophelia and Aemilia Case

(those photos from Aems,Mens&Devo)
its a sorta san fran done Imogen style...it should be mad goofy!

i am so so so fired.

2007-02-20T13:22:00.000-08:00

I just totally fired myself like 7 times...is it possible that it has been this long between blog posts??? FIRED....so in that few weeks i have sorta rehabbed imogen..ple who started the sim with me hav left game for various reasons ( mostly relationships and babies [all good things ])...so life in SL moves on and I am stil searching for the right balance of commerce and residence in Imo...launched pwnd magazine--http://pwndzine.blogspot.com/..the mag is so fun and so fantastic to be a part of I just love it..I also launched the store :D Lemon and so far sales have been kinda egh for me and awesome for aem (my biz partner)...

austin- so i went to austin and did a MV event and hung out with a bunch of SL kids in RL..sadly i have like 4 pictures buti will have more once i pillage other peoples flikr sites :D

rubs tumblie

2007-01-31T15:53:00.000-08:00

YAaay god i feel like i have been running the work gauntlet...a lot has been on my plate in SL for the last couple weeks...all of it self induced and all really fun...buy holy fucktard the minutia of it all...(sp)?....Aem and I finished the Lemon shop and I have to say its cute as hell...AND...WE HAVE THE FIRST SHAPE DEMO"s IN GAME :D...wheeeee after a tip from celeb we decided to give the shape demo a try and came up with pretty good options for them..:D...IM SO STOKEd
the store looks adorable and the shapes are all pretty succesful...the mag is chugging a long with tons of hiccups as usual...but it looks so gd good i could pee... and the sim is almost fully rented which is wierd..so things are good and its time to go back to haver fun...ala 7 days of hotpants....any ideas?

sooooooooooooooooooo

2007-01-23T01:31:00.000-08:00

it's looking like I post everytime i can't get into SL..which for some reason is right now....i keep crashing and i am in this AMAZING dune fremen outfit with the blue eyes from the spice and walking with no sense or whatever i am supposed to do..which was an excuse to not be working on the 3408095 projects I am doing now .....OK so new Imogen ad's make by shai de la crotch the ad manager of PWND magazine for this months issue..they turned out SO freaking lovely i couldn't beleive..

i have so much to leanr in photoshop still...i keep reaching to learn more but I think its time to take a class or make someone skype lesson me or something...Oh and i finished Colleens Style girl shoot and here is a sneak peek shot

Cancer said he did 500L of sales today on the sim which is a record for him...he asked what i did and i just dont know ..I suppose people are finally noticing us...but its nice to have random drop ins there..it feels more like a living breathing thing when that happens....THANK YOU to anyone who has stopped by the sim at any given time..it means the world to me and the people that live there...even if Cancer sets you on fire its only because he loves you...seriously...

*grid down picture spammmmmmmmmmm

2007-01-17T14:37:00.000-08:00

*barf

2007-01-14T13:46:00.000-08:00

literally.....
I had my first solid food since thursday night this morning.....I started getting sick on friday night and it was like stand by me....but worser :(

BUT

i feel much better today....:)

holy f-ing craptastic flash

2007-01-07T03:20:00.000-08:00

you must go see this.....TWICE...BABBYYYYYYYY FLYINGG DUCKINLINGGGGGGGGGGGSSSSS

seriously

I almost wept.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8hl5MJHDi9k

heheheheheee

2007-01-05T13:22:00.000-08:00

so my friend donk and I were sitting around this church he made in Jesse with these awesome shadows...then this happens
:O

i left to go blog this cause i thought it was so funny and he was all.." i'm still blowing him ( the guy who nuked us) up"

HOLY CRAP BALLS OF FIRE

2007-01-02T13:20:00.000-08:00

dude hello my love.../me makes out with shoe rack

happppy nudee yearrrrrrrr

2007-01-02T13:01:00.000-08:00

well new years was MUCH better than christmas....i had no expecations and YAAY it wwas way better than expected..
i even had a "fuck it im old" attack walking to my friends house and stopped the booze mart and picked up a MONDO expensive bottle of champagne..OH and i made all the jewlery i wore for new years that afternoon

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after christmas sucked the emotional energy out of me it was awesome to have this...i have friends i love in SL and in RL and they mean the world to me...
me and my guy just hit three months and no blood has been shed so again...happy happy....half the time i dont know weather to kick or kiss him but generally his love has knocked me out :P
i haver about 1983903458 projects in SL...the biggest are opening my own store called..Lemon. (sharing it with Aemilia Case & Gia Reymont) and starting a lifestyle mag called pwnd (with Saeya Nyanda)...and keeping the sim healthy and happy and the people in it healthy and happy...

OH and i need to post day 7 of the 7 days of hotpants...any ideas on what to do with the photo series after?

emoooo

2006-12-29T01:59:00.000-08:00

my and my baby cousins doing our best emo faces

blerg

2006-12-29T00:42:00.000-08:00

so many people have asked my how my holidays were in the last couple days and let me tell you seeing my family (my brothers and cousins) was fantastic...my brother's gf Melissa came for her first family holiday after I had gone to NEW JERSEY for her families Thanksgiving..and she got to see first hand the fun that is my step-mother Minou..yes thats her gd name..Minou-which means little cat in french I think....she is best understood as a tsunami of self involvement....it's not fun to be near her or around her or interact with her..it involves a tremendous amount of energy...which due to my SHINGLES (sighs) I am lacking....blerg I sound liek all those other self involved blogs that rattle on about the owners peg leg or negleting fathers ...

I find myself at this moment with my family gone and silence in my house in a sinkhole of loneliness

I have that icky pit in my stomach and the feeling of something not being right but not being able to figure out what it is..

**curls up in fetal ball**

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!

2006-12-23T14:38:00.000-08:00

bleh-Im late for a family dinner but I wanted to throw up my new hotpants shot...PINKKKKKK.....and say I love you to all my bishes :D

stolen from shai at 10:34 am

2006-12-21T08:28:00.000-08:00

My Life as Smashing House Party

Opening Credits:
Go or go ahead/rufus wainwright

Waking Up:
I'm Me I'm yours/jim noir

First Day At School/Work:
who knows/marvin black--(unf so true)

Falling In Love:
into dust/mazzy star ..(sh*tballs )

Breaking Up:
gone/kanye west...(oOOOo so true)

Prom:
Casmir Pulaski day/sufijan stevens..(oh dear :( )

Life’s Ok:
everything is everything/phoenix

Driving:
waterfalls/tlc...(rides my hand on the wind as a drive with my window open)

Flashback:
baby wont you please come home/louis prima

Getting Back Together:
aint no other man/Xtina

Wedding Scene:
old whores diet/rufus wainwright...(crap crapp crappppp)

Birth of Child:
broadway/sad little stars

Final Battle:
you turn me round/aqualung

Death Scene:
Ceu Distante/babel gilberto

Funeral Song:
you dont know my name/alicia keys

End Credits:
throw me a rope/kc tunstall

i dont know what this means :O

TERROR ALERT PURPLE

2006-12-21T00:03:00.000-08:00

ahhh day five of the 7 days of hotpants...enjoy...

i know i know i know i knowwwwww

2006-12-20T00:00:00.000-08:00

i am well aware that it has been WEEKS since my last posting..and I am sure the people who once checked this blog have long since given up...but I am feeling wordy lately and I want and try this fucker one more time :D my life is the same ish and totally different ish...i know i know use my words Haver...I have gotten a SL job for real and had a few weeks of being SUPER busy...i would log in and work work work...and thats no fun for anyone...sometimes the ebb and flow of SL social life can be sad...I miss people who arent around as much badly (AKA CHAD) and have been enjoying the new people in my life..I have met more SL people in RL and that always fun..people end up being so much more themselves and so much less at the same time...
OH
so i got bored and decided that I needed to take more fun old pictures in SL not related to work at all...and I came up with the Seven days of hotpants....I am posting the first 4 here :DDDD
TERROR ALERT BEIGE
TERROR ALERT RED
TERROR ALERT ORANGE
TERROR ALERT GREEN

they are posted in my profile as well if you have SO Much time to spare you want to burn your retinas with a lighter

hrmmm

2006-11-14T10:38:00.000-08:00

So i was without internet for the last day or so which forced me to HAVE to do real life things and interact with RL people....dang it.....I actually got a ton of homework and laundry done and watched 487598029475 movies and talked to my mom my friends my far away friends and more family....I will put up my pictures from peter and adri's RL visit asap...sadly there are not a TON of them as we forgot a camera a majority of the time...boohiss on me for being a suck ass hostess...

mennoooooo

2006-11-06T12:20:00.000-08:00

menno just molested my av with his hoo :( in retaliation...IM NOT EVEN FIGHTING

2006-11-03T11:08:00.001-08:00

posted by Haver Cole on Imogen using a blogHUD : [permalink]

bravo

2006-11-03T11:08:00.000-08:00

posted by Haver Cole on Imogen using a blogHUD : [permalink]

novi and menno are having a axe/frying pan fight right now....its so sad ..my money is on novi...

2006-11-03T11:07:00.000-08:00

posted by Haver Cole on Imogen using a blogHUD : [permalink]

hurts from laughing

2006-10-28T01:55:00.000-07:00

posted by Haver Cole on Imogen using a blogHUD : [permalink]

so this is my first attempt at fun times blug hudding and hopefully with this MAGICal device I will write so much more in SL....((goes silent))

2006-10-26T13:05:00.000-07:00

posted by Haver Cole on Imogen using a blogHUD : [permalink]

soooooo

2006-10-25T13:50:00.000-07:00

i cant log into the updated SL as it crashes everytime i try and even get to the log in screen...IM STARTING TO TAKE THIS PERSONAL LINDENS!!!!!
so i cracked out MORE in photoshoppe

ssseriously take me to PS rehab people

2006-10-24T02:06:00.000-07:00

cracky

2006-10-04T01:23:00.000-07:00

i am suffering from what i call a seriouslly scary photoshop addiction..COME TAKE IT AWAY FROM MEEEeeeeeeee

2006-10-03T03:24:00.000-07:00

newds

2006-09-11T05:28:00.000-07:00

newds

2006-09-11T05:27:00.000-07:00

oh.my.

2006-09-11T05:21:00.000-07:00

so me being me... in a fit of pique a few days ago after I ran into my friend Rob i decided to pose SL naked in a bunch of photographs ....jfc. they turned out so lovely I cant even imagine it's my DIGITAL self!!! *pictures above*

Running by Torleys blog as well I fould this great place to create your own Seal so i made one for imogen...SO CUTE I WANT TO DIE INSIDE...

things are the same ish..Im trying to get some shapes packaged for CJ and Roslin and as soon as I have some pictures I will show you all...ther are looking pretty cute if i do say so myself and one of them will be MY personal shape ..so that will be wierd to see little me's running round like crazy...god is that like totally narssistic? shit i dont think I spelled that right *sighs*

CRIPES!!!

2006-09-06T11:15:00.000-07:00

So i know I haven't blogged in about 98739187435 years....I KNOW..I am a terrible person....seriously. But I have so much news I don't know where to start!!!!

So i got a sim and named it Imogen after Imogen Heap in a really scary stalk-y sort of way...yaay for stalking!
It has been so much work and kinda swallowed my second life whole. I need you to understand when i say it has been SO much work i need you to know I havent actually done anything on the sim. I can't build, make textures, terra form or really anything else that requires skills. Lucky for me I have a group of amazing friends who have come in and helped me make it a (almost done) reality.

David Valentino first and formost has really put all his -totally filled with important stuff- time into the place. I have turned him into my own personal sweatshop....conversations go something like this...."So I was thinking we should start a foot cult on Imogen....Hey Honey can you make a giant prim foot temple for me...?" and like 20 min later I have a giant foot temple on the sim. He really is the heartbeat of the place and I know for sure that i couldnt have done it without him...as I would have been sitting alone in a giant grassy sim...crying. He is my home.

I was skyping with another one of the friends that has made Imogen a great place to be last night. Fatty or Enzzo which is his given name has been a good friend of mine in SL for a little less than a year I think...so we were talking about the idea of how to integrate the emotions I feel for people in SL and my real life. I can honestly say i have deep and abiding emotions for so many people in this game....and I have never experienced that before...when i leave SL for a while and take a step back I cant imagine my life without them...even though I know that SL is full of transitions...people leave and come back all the time...shit now Im totally off track and I need to finish the thank you's..OK FOCUS

SO Scarlet Singer and Richie Waves have also made A huge impact on the sim on and on my life....they are without a doubt the most in love couple I know in SL and the people I have the most faith in as a SLto RL couple...Singer is stupidly good at photoshop and is a real artist...but actually I feel like Richies is soon going to give her a run for her money....He did my favorite object on the sim which is the Railroad track crossing and when i took a real life train trip from Chicago to Apsen i saw so many of those and every single one made me smile...the train tunnel on the tracks is a fav place of a lot of people i know to have some Sl quiet... *cough peter cough* They were the first people to really settle down their store in Imogen and cranked out the Lush tattoo shop and then their offices like in record time. I know how busy they both are with SL work and it was really touching how quickly they embraced the sim.

The Chad and his FOC radio....so a while back we dicided as friends to get a stream so we could stream our own music...chad slowly and surely took over the airwaves playing his mix of like a thousand different styles of music...as the sim was coming along Chad asked if he could make a FOC radio station on the bad side of town..(SOUTHSYDEEEEE) and I though the idea was ardorable...so I get back to the sim a few days later and there is like this GIANT pine thing hanging out on the lawn..I started dying laughing ....i mean it was like mini mansion giant....like a SL mob family could have had all their 98074598274 kids in it and had room..and when he tried to explain it all he could say was ..."i really wanted it to be like WKRP...we could all hang out and it just grew and grew....*insert cute chad face*" He has made Imogen his home and really settled in and gone all metrosexual on me..he IM-ed me a few days ago to say and i quote.."You HAVE to come see my new curtains"

Gia Rey is my largest renter and one of my closest friend..I can't say in reality how much I love her except to say to know Gia is to love her...She is there all the time and makes me laugh every second I'm with her....stupid girl cant seem to commit to putting ANYTHING on her land but I think it's because she is so excited about her sim powers she can't stop to focus..(allthough who am i to talk) I tend to rez on the sim and have Gia there doing something totally insane or being completly mute because she has passed out on her computer...She really "got" the concept of the sim and brought a joy to it that i know for sure I couldent bring in the same way she can...its just so pure and concentrated...kinda like fresh squeezed Oj..yum

Fatty who I talked about before is just a pefect example of what Imogen is all about....going back and forth from his usually topless fat rock and roll av and Biggie Smalls av just makes me smile so hard. One night when we were bored we came up with a plan for Fatty to marry Gia's alt Rawk....we set about to find the trashiest wedding stuff we could find and have a straight up Vegas/Dynasty wedding..we planned it all in about 20 mins but Rawk was there and No fatty..so we waited and waited and suddenly he shows up in ...i shit you not....a GD captains outfit like the love boat...I started laughing so hard I was wheezing and making gurgling noises...we called it the Bobby/Whitney wedding and then had a naked pole dancing reception at the Clam..

Luca And my Tessers...who knew that such amazing Vamps would brighten up the whole place..Tess has talked ot me about moving her hmm oddities store on to the sim and I was stoked ..I though a comic book type store was just the right feel for the place. Then Tess moved in and like never moved out...that happens a lot in Imogen...it's like a black hole....and the sweetest part is that everytime I mention Tess everyone says.." Ohh i love tess " and the Luca...he made the public gardens around my office and there is this wee deck on them thats just totally perfect for a quiet moment...he has been the muscle for the sim and when the faux dutch mob tried to move in he totally cut them off and took care of buisnesss..I heart him mucho!!!

Cindy my cindy...she put her little shop Cin city on the sim and has what i think is one of best sets of slippers in game hands down..talking Cartman slipper YES PLEASE...she is my oldest friend in SL and the most fantastic sounding board known to man..and so damn smart it hurts...LOVE YOU ARGENTINA

And last but not least is Novi and Ty....they just like showed up one day and never left....They started out at the Clam and slowly but surely worked their way into everyones heart....Two totally different women...Novi is so much like me sometimes but like 500 times cooler than i ever was....she is frenetic and makes these amazing teeshirt thats she put in the Lush store..I mean she shaded in nipples...*dies twice* ...and Ty..sweet drunk Ty....anyone who has ever spent much time on Imogen has been run over by Ty's monster truck..I kinda see it as when kids kick eachother on the play ground...so I am hoping her killing me on a regular basis is a sign of love..they were the first offical residents of Imogen and brought tons of people in and made it finally feel like it was a place not just a bunch of pixels-thank you two SO much...<3

So I know there are a million more people I want to thank, Adri and Peter and Ginny and Alan and Donk and Kit and Ros and Cj and Iris and Zen and everyone else i love and who has stepped foot on the sim...god this sounds like a crazy oscar speech!!

More to come.... and PICTURES!!

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hasty pictures of the bar so far

2006-07-14T16:05:00.000-07:00

Blueberry Pie

2006-07-14T15:20:00.000-07:00

So if you can imagine my bank....thought that someone had stolen my credit card and they froze it...so i call because I'm like wtf? The woman says to me.." well we froze it because we saw more than one charge to this place called Linden Labs" HAHAHAHHA like my credit card was saying.." you are tooooooo ollllldddd to play video games" but now the stream is not on because all my credit card stuff was frozen so FOC radio will take a day to get back into biz..

Still working on the new dirrrrrty strip club...the build is coming along great and i will have more pictures for you asap....

BUT i am still working on a name....so far its been the happy ending and the bearded clam (aka the clam) any new intresting ideas would be fantastic.

right now in my SL i am trying to deal with professional jealousy. it is so hard not to feel like a loser or overwhelmed by the talents of people in SL.....i am in awe everyday with what people can do in this world and sometimes it's hard not to just " EHHHHHHHHHHHHH" all over the place...

how do you deal with your professional jealousy in SL?

yup

2006-07-09T16:32:00.000-07:00

Once again I am hungover...this crazy clam bake at my friend Hedji's house last night...*holds my head*

So i just finished watching this amzing documentryon the punk momevent from beginning to end and it just blew my mind. I feel like it has such an energy and mindfulness behind it .... I never knew really
i just thought it was a ton of angry 17 year old guys but it seems to be so much more and so much less all at once. now i have to download some lou reed and contemplate...god i am such a dork

As far as SL goes I am having a quiet time of it lately...maybe on an SL slump...I think part of it is that maybe SL is becoming too much of "the man " in its way with this really open subscription policy...
every single person i know in SL has maybe 3-4 alts for no reason really...
and if you assume that behind each little doll is a person I just imagine all these like...nameless faceless non animated av's waiting for someone to give them life who never will...is it possible to cheat on oneself or even ones pixel representation of oneself????

oh and fucking a ...i linked my first objects...after a year and a half of SL..*laughs harder*

imagine 3 years from now i will build a room.......wheeeeeeee

........water........

2006-07-05T10:57:00.000-07:00

Im really really hung over....

more to come

must ...post ..photo...*dies from cuteness

2006-07-03T00:03:00.000-07:00

hey kittens!!

2006-07-02T11:06:00.000-07:00

so I am having a RL party on the 4th of July...so i am not gonna be really present in SL or in my blog til it's over..**panic..panic...panic** Its going to be the first party I have thrown in my house and I am kinda worried.My friend Hein woke me up @ 930AM to ask me if I had a grill for burgers and such.....930am on a SAT...my friends are fucking bonkers..

Anyhooo I made this dorky assed FOC thing and I am hoping that my Singer-poo will photoshop the living hell out of it and make it cool. I am kinda pleased that it was my first photoshop cut and paste...I am learning this program at a snails pace...maybe next year i will be able to put backgrounds in...*snorts*

CHad if you read this on FOCradio I will kill you....I just want to say how much my friends in SL mean to me in general...I am not one of those people who is playing in their mom's basement (not that there is anything wrong in that-well there is a little bit worng with it) I have a bright and shiny RL that is full of insanity and jot and pain and all that. But in the people I have met in SL is a sort of comfort and laughter that i haven't found in other places..so thanks for making me laugh til i pee...

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barf-less

2006-06-27T12:43:00.000-07:00

HIiiii Im back and semi not sick. I went to the Doctor and got some Nexium and I might have to see a gastro something or other but YAY!

I went to a music fest called INtonation this weekend and saw the Streets, Ghostface Killah, LAdy S and a bunch of other people. I actually shook my ass on stage with GK with a bunch of hootichie girls...let's just say I was very/semi wasted and call it a day..IMa gonna post a picture from the fest here..

SL news is pretty boring. Gia Dj-ed at the elbow room and we had a HUUUUUGE mudwrestling contest. I was " the CHOCOLATE THUNDER" Chad kicked everyones ass ....no idea how and we had 1100L purse to anyone who could beat him and no one could...later on in the night I mud wrestled as Shiva (the 8 armed goddess) and my opponent was a bright shining angel..(aka Moo-Cyndane )

So i ask this question of my friends all the time..." Are you happy"....and oddly it's something people don't ask all that often. For me everyone answers almost cautiously like they should not be allowed to say " YES I AM FANNNNNTASTIC" and really mean it. When I ask the question usually it's a good way to get to know my friends better..get to know what going on in their lives..

So kids are you happy??

sicky sickerson

2006-06-22T12:34:00.000-07:00

Hi Kids---need less to say the title of my post says it all. I have been sickness itself with a little food poisoning. So I have no crazy fun news other than Marlena is possesed by the devil again and John Black is scary looking and jello is yummy. More when my strength returns.....

2006-06-17T05:04:00.000-07:00

erm

2006-06-17T04:53:00.000-07:00

I had the most fantastic sushi today-- fatty yellowtail--*passes out from awesomeness.

Another late night for me I stayed up all night but on the opposite side I organized my inventory fairly well. I'm starting to shoot my new line of Shapes or the adverts.

I saw NAcho Libre...mad dissapointing BUT I ate nacho's in Nacho libre..Ironic, no?

Feeling stretched a little thin in SL. Had words with a few good friends and that always makes me upset. I blame the PMS monster and lack of sleep and maybe too much game time lately. I am trying to keep my head cool in the game and the drama out.

Cursing the sky sometimes I wonder why I come back over and over again....what is it about this world that means so much to me I have spent the last year and a half playing it?

I want to ask anyone who ever reads this....what do you think your av smells like?

nachoooooooooooo libre

2006-06-16T13:30:00.000-07:00

Im so stoked I'm on the way to Nacho Libre!!!!

Gia got the stream working but of course I can't use it because of my stupid Mac...I cant wait to her her bootiful voice on my land!!

I stayed up all night.....*sigh*

OH my relay for life team is in second but the pink pixels are gonna whomp us....PLEASE GIVE!!

2006-06-15T01:29:00.000-07:00

donkers

2006-06-15T01:22:00.000-07:00

what a long day i have had...and wierd...my car is out of the shop (YAY) so i can ummm put it back in the garage.

Trying to set up DJ-ing stuff with all my friends and it's like planning to launch a fucking rocket to the moon. endless and exausting. Mac is the reason though. They say they are compatible with everything but I cant run SAM which runs the stream which allows me to DJ....*takes a deep breath.

One of my SL friends threatened to commit sucide today. I have known him for over a year. SO huge a statment that is. It seeps into my brain and sets it up with a little poison. I dont know how to say how awful it is. There are not enough words. So i yelled at him and I am going to pray to my tiny god..(I am agnostic) and hope that someone somewhere is watching him.

I did great shoot with Donk and I am putting up one of the pictures. I had such a good time and he was so good about being quiet. I think he was probably in one of his thousands of IMs like me.

I miss Scarlet Singer and talking to her tonight was like talking to a mirror.

2006-06-13T22:14:00.000-07:00

bah

2006-06-13T22:07:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired boo hiss.
I wanted to get more done today in world and out but I didn't. I am starting to stress ball about this race for the cure event. I just want so badly to do things well..I don't really considr myself a perfectionist but more that I am really competitive. I like to win. But now I am starting to see this odd nitpicking in my self. I forever fidget with the Shapes I make feeling like I need to be better , do better, and the best work I do is when I am inspired...maybe i just need more inspiration.

Im taking the night off and reading a book called "The Girls" about two cranial conjoined twins..."Geek Love " is one of my favorite books of all time and I find something so wonderfully soothing about "freaks" Maybe because they carry their difference so much on the outside people can't ignore them. To me the less ignored something is the less power it gets.

I like things people can't ignore.

thisa morning

2006-06-13T09:42:00.000-07:00

So I woke with two guys in my appartment this morning...not for the reasons you thing...*laughs*..
MY air is finally being fixed so no more sweaty cranky Haver. I will now be cool calm collected Haver (yay) I am hoping to finish my second custom Shape today and have it be done with. Why people want me to make them porn stars I will never know...Where are the people who want me to make them look like Amelie or even crappy Julia Roberts?
I understand people can be anything in SL and maybe part of that wants to be a SLoot? I mean had I not done all my slutting around in RL i might be more apt to kink in SL.
I hope Scarlett is still not smoking...I am so terribly proud of her and on the day she quit I had half a ciggie and put it out because it just didn't sit well...maybe I am truly done for good as well?

2006-06-13T02:08:00.000-07:00

god lets see h ow many typos I can do in one sentance

2006-06-13T01:53:00.000-07:00

Its my wee doll blog for haver...!
It's 3:50am here and I just signed off and i was checking Scarlet's sl.me.com page and I found her blog. I like to see the person behind the doll or whatever or how ever this comes across. I have my feet crossed underneath my at my desk and every so often a little breeze from my fan runs a cold stream across my back. Needing to get back on some sort of semi sane time/sleep schedule...One can only dream.

Somehow I have found myself maxxing out IM's a few times during each sign in. That's so fucked up to me as I feel like sometimes I am just a receptacle for what people want or need to say to me. Sometimes I can be so detached I can't even imagine people still want to talk to me...

I think I hurt my friend Parenia's feelings when I asked her not to map me. I don't know how to say what i needed to nicely. But after the ex girlfriend and others I just sort of get scared when people do that..map me...and the wierd part is how can i be scared by a game that cant hurt me ??

more to come from my ramblings...please comment on the insanity

Havernator

Helloooooooo vancouuuuverrrrr

grid down PICTURE SPAMMMMMM

wow SUPER fired

i am so so so fired.

**rubs tumblie**

sooooooooooooooooooo

*grid down picture spammmmmmmmmmm

*barf

holy f-ing craptastic flash

heheheheheee

HOLY CRAP BALLS OF FIRE

happppy nudee yearrrrrrrr

emoooo

blerg

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!

stolen from shai at 10:34 am

TERROR ALERT PURPLE

i know i know i know i knowwwwww

hrmmm

mennoooooo

menno just molested my av with his hoo :( in retaliation...IM NOT EVEN FIGHTING

bravo

novi and menno are having a axe/frying pan fight right now....its so sad ..my money is on novi...

hurts from laughing

so this is my first attempt at fun times blug hudding and hopefully with this MAGICal device I will write so much more in SL....((goes silent))

soooooo

ssseriously take me to PS rehab people

cracky

newds

newds

oh.my.

CRIPES!!!

hasty pictures of the bar so far

Blueberry Pie

yup

........water........

must ...post ..photo...*dies from cuteness

hey kittens!!

barf-less

sicky sickerson

erm

nachoooooooooooo libre

donkers

bah

thisa morning

god lets see h ow many typos I can do in one sentance

rubs tumblie